Abusive parents?

Let's say you were abused as a child. then you got married. then you're abusive mother was jealous you were moving away from her influence and protection and destroyed your marriage. Coincidentally when your marriage was falling apart your parents decided that it was the right time to tell you that they were at fault when you were a kid. thinking to yourself "why are they telling me this now? is it just to bring me back to the dark side and pull me further out of my marriage so they can control me?" then after your divorce it's still little comments here and there to undermine my confidence from my parents. I don't think people like that ever change. Abusive parents that is unless they get help. Now that I am divorced i believe my parents played a huge role in undermining my marriage. i pushed my spouse to the brink by my abusive behavior that i learned and they said he was being abusive when he yelled back at me when i really treated him like crap. After I left him, my parents swooped in and took care of me. Almost like they were glad I was back under their control. All the time telling me I deserved better but knowing that they just want to control me and hated I was married and out of their control. Now they have given me so much money and stuff that I feel like it’s going to get abusive. I also realize I messed up, I love my husband, and I did so many things wrong but if I go back to him I lose all that support my parents are now showing me by me playing the victim card but I’m afraid it’s laced with expectations, abuse, and control. My ego will be hurt to if I go crawling back to my husband asking for his forgiveness. However I know now I’m in total control of my parents whose love comes with control. What do I do?